Do you struggle with anxiety, letting go, always needed to try and make things happen?
A little over two years ago, I had to learn the value of spiritual surrender and by no means was it an easy process when I was going through it. But I will say it is one of the most enriching experiences, it taught me a lot and once I gave into the process, it actually became fun.
My process of spiritual surrender began when
I returned to the states after spending a little over a year traveling solo around the globe. It was a huge adjustment for me.
Just imagine being in a different country and city every couple of weeks. On the constant move, always experiencing something new, meeting different people, living moment to moment without any responsibility.
To all of a sudden, I found myself back in Miami living at my mother’s house (which btw I had been on my own for the last seven years) starting all over again. At least that’s what it felt like, at the moment. (But the truth is I wasn’t really starting over.)
I was, however, building from the ground up, only now it was on a – new level – even if though at the moment it doesn’t quite appear that way.
Man, I had so many mixed emotions after returning home from my travels-I felt like a total failure.
I had no idea what I was going to do with myself or rather what I wanted to do. But after a month of moping around and feeling sorry for myself ( I stopped running away from my emotions) with the help of a friend and my spirit guides, I began the process of spiritual surrender.
I learned that if anything was to change – I first would need to accept where I was and what I was feeling and then I would have to surrender to it.
Eventually, I stopped fighting against being where I didn’t want to be. I started to notice that my resistance was actually part of my lesson to acceptance.
As I accepted where I was and what I feared, I, then surrender to my fears by trusting that where I currently found myself was exactly where I needed to be; even though I didn’t understand “how” I would get to where I wanted to be, from where I was.
And let me tell you the moment I accepted what I could not change and I surrender to it, everything in my life started to change and quickly. I picked up momentum and before I knew it I found myself exactly where I wanted to be. And I didn’t have to make anything happen, the path revealed itself to me in time.
I remember my first paid coaching experiencing, where a client had scheduled with me a session, And usually payment needs to be made 24 to 48 hours in advance prior to our session.
I remember feeling a little anxious as this was my first client, a day before our session I had an inkling to want to email the client once more to re-confirm our session, even though we had already confirmed the day before.
I had to catch myself and recognize that my intention at that moment for emailing them was based out of fear. I wanted to email them because I was afraid they were going to cancel and I wasn’t going to have a client.
It wasn’t until I recognized what was happening inside of me that I felt it and accepted it. I had to admit to myself “Hey Stephanie, I’m kinda scared right because I am very excited to have my first client, but I’m afraid they might cancel”
At that moment as I admitted to myself was happening inside of me and accepted it, I did not email the client. Instead, I surrender to my fear, to the real possibility that, hey, they might cancel. I might not have a client and I have to be okay with that. Once I actually accepted what was and surrender to it, no lie within an hour later I received an email payment confirmation.